Am I Giving Up??

I feel like I have to do something. I can't live another year in my dads house. I need to get my life going. I just don't know what I am supposed to do. People keep telling me go to college. But that doesn't seem like that is what I am supposed to do. Not yet. GOD HELP ME!!!! I am so lost. And tired of listening to people asking me what I am going to do. And then giving my suggestions when I say I don't know. I know that they are just trying to help because they don't want me to not do anything with my life. I don't want to be some one working in the fast food industry for the rest of my life. I want to work with kids. I want to be that person who has it altogether. Not the one who doesn't. I just want to be HAPPY. I am tired of feeling the way I do, lost, angry, sad, confused, scared, and tired. I feel like I am going the wrong way. Whats the right way for me?? What does God want me to do? Why can't I hear him? Or see him? Am I trying to push him away? I don't want to? I want help and need his. Not yours. Why can't I relax and let him take me where he wants/needs me.